I have learned so much about my personality lately. I just went back and read some of my old blog posts. I was so happy and upbeat and excited about everything! Sometimes I think life just runs you a little ragged and joy gets put on the back burner. We have been investigating day care facilities lately and its just been an emotional mess for me! I was worried about putting her in, but when I went to visit a few places, they look like fun! So, now Im great with her being in day care. However, day care is EXPENSIVE. Wow. So, I have gotten totally overwhelmed and let myself get stressed to the max and I've just sucked the joy out of everything lately.
I pleaded with God to speak to me this morning. And low and behold, He did! Not audibly today, but through the voice of his servants... all day long. An email this morning that just rocked my world, a conversation with mom that was just of the best kind, a hopeful phone call from a friend that is fighting for me in motherhood, a picture from my husband, coming through just when I need him.
I have so much to be thankful for... topping that list, her.
8 months ago, I was praying for God to just give us one day at a time with her. Wow. He's given us 8 months in which everyday has been overflowing compared to the last! What a blessing!
I recommitted myself to just TRUST God today. Sometime's that's a tough thing for me to do because I think I should have this supernatural ability to see into the future so I can plan for it. Sometimes I can't stand my personality. It's so annoying. God reminded me today that HE IS TRUSTWORTHY. And when I seek Him, I will find Him! He is not hiding! He is not far off! He is just waiting on me to come to Him and talk with Him! Today I am renewed and refreshed and re-amazed that God is exactly who He always has been... an ever present help when we are in need. Today I lay down all of my worry and rejoice in God for being God. Huge. Awesome. Constant. Ever Present. He amazes me. I am so very thankful.